Looking forward to the coming year....

Another year had gone by, and what a year it was. It’s one roller coaster ride for me. 2011 started out great, and towards the 2nd quarter of the year it was going downhill. But I was able to maintain some level of sanity all throughout. What I like about 2011 is I’ve made some new friends, got a job I love (almost no pressure at all \m/) and I have a stronger bond with my family. 2011 is more like a self discovery for me, admitting my greatest flaws and working on it.

I can now say I know “Myself” better. I have discovered as well my love for writing. Started my blog, though I am not always able to post on it, still it’s something I never thought I would be able to do.

I’ve had disappointments as well, but hey that’s part of life.

A dear friend of mine had pass on this year. I guess that’s the saddest part of 2011 for me. Knowing that I would never get the chance to see or hear his voice again. I sure miss him.

With his passing, I’ve learned that Life is too precious, and that we shouldn’t procrastinate, because in a snap of a finger a love one can be lost. Life is too precious for regret. Treat each day as your last. Time is too valuable to waste. If you want to do something, just do it. If you like someone tell them, what’s the worst that can happen? You get turn down, so what? Just charge it to experience. Move on, do not dwell on it.

The best part of the year 2011 for me as well is having my bestfriend back. Not many people know that we had a falling out. But we were able to patch things up and things are better than before. We picked up where we left off. I guess that’s the great thing about bestfriends, that no matter what, we will always be there for each other.

And so I end 2011 with so much hope for 2012. I can’t wait to start the NEW YEAR!

Incidentally what is Happiness?

How can one truly say that they are happy? What makes a person happy? When you search the internet you will see different version of what people think what Happiness should be. Some would say happiness is the journey and not the destination. Some would say happiness is the absence of striving for happiness. Then there would be others who would say happiness is deciding to look beyond the imperfection. But with all of these, it still doesn’t answer my question.

If these are what it takes to make people happy then why am I not Happy? If you count all my Blessing, you would say I should be happy because I am way luckier that other people. I have a nice paying job, I don’t work at night anymore, meaning I sleep at night like normal people do. I have lots of friends who love me and understand my moods. I am closer to my mom. I have a beautiful daughter. I can buy things that other people cannot afford. I have a house, so I don’t have to pay rent. I can eat whatever I want and whenever I want. I am pretty enough, intelligent enough, though I weigh more that I should.

So why am I not Happy? What would it take for me to be Happy? Will more money brings me Happiness? A car? Lovelife? But then why should my Happiness depend on another person?

One thing I am certain, something is missing in my Life. And I don’t know what is.

And I know its only God who can answer my question.