It seems that a lot of people I know are either breaking up or getting separated. Or currently having problems in their relationships. I know I've been burned twice and in some ways it made me cynical. Cynical but still gullible (if there is such a person, I guess it would be me)
Though right now God is not giving any signs of who that person might be, no matter how much I bug him with my question. God is telling me to wait, but because my greatest flaw is being impatient, I cannot wait. I just have to know. I even asked God if I would get to meet him before the year ends, or if I have already met him. Still, he won’t tell me. I just hope I don’t fall again for the wrong guy once more and hopefully I don’t misunderstand his signs once again, like what happened the last time.
I want what my grandparents had and what my parents have. My grandparents were married for 54 years. Though it aint perfect, there were times they would fight. (But there is no perfect marriage.) I even remember the time when my grandmother walked out on us. I don’t remember what the reason behind it. I was just 5 years old, I think. My grandfather had to go and woo her to come back home, and the excuse he used was Me. LoL. He said that there wouldn’t be anyone who would look after me while he goes out and earn a living. :) I had a feeling that my grandmother just wanted my grandfather to woo her.
My grandfather would sometime tease my grandmother and would try to tickle her and my Lola (it means grandmother in Filipino) would slap my Lolo’s (grandfather) hand away at the same time scolding at my Lolo “Stop it Joe”. That’s what he calls my Lolo “Joe”; I’ve asked her about that because that’s not my Lolo’s nickname. My Lolo’s nick was Ando it was short for Felizardo. My Lola would call my Lolo “Joe” and she said it’s her endearment for my Lolo, like dear or Hon for other people.
My parents have the same kind of relationship. Whenever I would see them teases each other. It makes me smile and wish that when I get married I would I have the same closeness that they have. When Dad would tease Mom, my Mom would smile and give my father a playful slap on his arm or shoulder while saying “oh, Daddy” and Dad would respond “hehehe”.
Again it’s not perfect but no marriage is or relationship is for that matter. Everyday couples have to work hard to make it work.
But I’m still thankful for what had happened to me for the past several years. Those experiences have thought me a lot. It made me stronger. And it made me closer to my Mom. As they say, everything happens for a reason. No matter how down I was, or when I felt I was all alone. Those years are the darkest years of my Life. I guess that’s when I hit rock bottom. But despite that my Faith with God has never wavered.
I’m thankful every day for all the Blessing I receive like my job, my health, my daughter, my family and friends.
Even just catching the bus on time, I would send a prayer of thanks. :)
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